The Amanda Diaries
It all came so suddenly, the losing everything. suddenly and easily. I've been dreaming about you for as long as I can remember, and I've only just begun to sleep since I've shared a pillow with you... but lately I've been sleepless, I guess I'm just afraid to find out what it's like to be alone again. Ive spent the last 6 months erasing all the memories of my past and filling up with hopes of the future. That and making lists of all the things about you I know I'll miss; a page of all the big things and chapters of all the small ones that only I should know about........ I'm dying in small doses and the dianosis is heartbreak, but if missing you is all it takes to realise all the mistakes I've made with all the wrong people in all the seemingly right places, it's more than worth the cost of cough drops and kleenex.
I'll never glow like the way you make me glow, I'll never laugh like you make me laugh with all the simple things that you do, I'll never cry as hard as you make me simply by making me so happy. You say you understand, but you don't understand, you say you love me, and I'll say I'll never wake up ever knowing how or why. But I will always wake up greatfull.
It all came so suddenly, the losing everything. suddenly and easily. I've been dreaming about you for as long as I can remember, and I've only just begun to sleep since I've shared a pillow with you... but lately I've been sleepless, I guess I'm just afraid to find out what it's like to be alone again. Ive spent the last 6 months erasing all the memories of my past and filling up with hopes of the future. That and making lists of all the things about you I know I'll miss; a page of all the big things and chapters of all the small ones that only I should know about........ I'm dying in small doses and the dianosis is heartbreak, but if missing you is all it takes to realise all the mistakes I've made with all the wrong people in all the seemingly right places, it's more than worth the cost of cough drops and kleenex.
I'll never glow like the way you make me glow, I'll never laugh like you make me laugh with all the simple things that you do, I'll never cry as hard as you make me simply by making me so happy. You say you understand, but you don't understand, you say you love me, and I'll say I'll never wake up ever knowing how or why. But I will always wake up greatfull.
